M.Y. R.E.A.L.M.

Who am i?

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 17:04:50 GMT

Desperately wants to know exactly who am i?
Within 3 months i looked different, dress differently, behaves differently
What exactly am i hoping to achieve?
I am evolving.. but i am worried with the end product of that evolution?!

A side note, quote of my life so far, 'Adores but yet fear'
So accurate yet surreal..

Drifting..

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 14:01:58 GMT

I should be typing away at my 4 coming assignments yet i am blogging.. tell me about distractions!! hahaha!!!

Recently been having alot of thoughts about myself lately. Wenjun says changes are a good thing but dun ever lose myself, Ade says tht i have changed, am not the same like before, am more decisive and critical.

I keep thinking were the changes good or bad? I can never come up with an answer for myself. Thinking, ideas and principles i hold so strongly last time seems like all a fantasy that i created for myself because i feel that should be the way a person should live their lifes. But recently i am starting to question myself about wad i believe in last time. It seems like i am losing myself or am i still searching for the true "ah long".

I keep telling myself that after last year i finally started to think more. But the more i think the more i feel it is not jus the past year, i feel it has been years after years of accommadating and accepting everything be it good or bad actually made me realise tht probably enough is enough? Why should i be accommodating to the extend that i use to be??

I have created a barrier around myself now in order to protect myself even more than ever. I dun trust people easily now. Even for those i trust i will still create that barrier around me to protect myself for any unpredictable consequences. I dun laugh and try to be fun all the time anymore. I am starting to keep to myself more and always want to be in my own world.

Actually i also dunno wad i have become. Hopefully i can find the true "ah long" soon.

Woot Woot!!

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 14:50:57 GMT

My blog needed some life so here i am!!!

Can't believe i haven wrote anything since like the day i got my licence!! Good 4 to 5 months i went missing from here.

I wonder if anyone still come n see if i had wrote anything or does anyone still read it anymore. haha!!

Well exams went pretty ok i guess? I got grades tht i predicted except for one.. Screw macro!! I still manage to survived and i am still on course to grad at the end of this year!! Been doing quite abit during my 2 1/2 months of summer break in Sin. Kev came to sin and left and come again and left again a total of 3 times. haha!! Finally made my way to Sabah and spend a punt load of money there. Kept bowling til i dunno wad is day and night, oh and i think i am starting to improve thts why decided to get into the RMIT bowling team for coming Aus Uni Games in Sept this year and to get some secret training!! Behold!!!

Got my PS3!! Done shit load of shopping!! Got my house!! Set up my room to a pretty decent state i must say, haha!! All seems good til now and i hopes it carries on!!

A side note,
Hear some news recently, i dunno if its a happy or sad one. Suddenly made me think of alot of pointless stuff. Anyway its not my problem and don't really affect me in any give situation. Well i think i will leave it as tht then!!!

Flawless Victory!!!

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 03:35:37 GMT

After years and years of procastinating i finally got this damn thing in my hands!! Everything jus went so smoothly no hick ups!!!

Finally finally got my Red P!!!!

Wish List!!!

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 05:35:55 GMT

After 1 night of drinking and chilling and talking at Steve's place i have come up with a wish list before the end of 2008!!!

1) Sony Ericsson Xperia 1
2) My first and only tattoo. I think will be the ONLY one!! We shall see!
3) Hopefully can lose some extra pounds!

Ok for now thts the only 3 i can come up with!

I think these 3 is good enough to occupy my time during December! LOL!

Been some time...

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 18:30:54 GMT

Well i was just looking through my posts on my blog since i arrived in Melbourne last July.

I hasn't been writting alot since the day i set foot on this huge ass island to pursue a better future. I dunno whether is that bad or good? Bad cos there isn't much here to write about or good that there are jus too much thing for me to do til i can't be bothered? Ok i think i am typing rubbish now. I have no idea wad i am typing now, i am just trying to make something up. Ok that was a bad attempt.

Been looking at those entries and looking thru the tonnes of photo that i have took here so far. Unknowingly i have spend almost 3 semesters here. Time jus flew by and it totally feels as though i jus came here and trying to make a life out of it. Some things turn out differently from how i picture myself to be before i came here. Well not everything goes ur way in life huh? I guess i have learnt so much more here than i thought i would.

I just dunno why am i typing this entry. Its like i have a sudden rush of emotions but yet i cannot figure out wad is it. I think its homesickness! Yes i wanna go home real real bad!!! Shocked hearing tht from me eh?? haha!! But i feel thats jus not the only thing. I am stressed about school work and exams. I have been slacking quite abit this semester or should i say alot? OK i am starting to procastinate now. I feel the urgency but somehow i am not exactly doing anything at the moment!! Shite!!!

I also feel the nearer i am to graduating i am worrying more about wad i am gonna do after i graduate. Am i gonna study on further to get a post-grad but that would means an extra burden on my parents yet again. Or am i gonna go into the real world by joining the work force?? Well i think tht is jus something i have to face sooner or later but i am jus gonna stop at that for the time being.

Lastly this for all the people back home!!! I am gonna go back soon!!!! 21st Nov to be exact!!!

Yueklin!!! U better be free on tht night for dinner!!!

Jun, Zhonghe and Andy!!! Wait for me to go back!!! And pray that i will be the one driving this time round!!!!

Shing and Ruoting!!! Better come to back Sin ASAP!!!!

Celia!! Ur mi amor is gonna be back soon!!!! KTV!!!!

Baba & Yan!!! Eventhough we haven't been contacting much since i came back!! I miss u guys heaps!!!!

Tracy!! UR PTL IS COMING HOME AGAIN!!!!

And lastly all to my cousins!!! I can't wait to see u guys again!!!!!

YAY!! I AM GONNA GO HOME SOON!!!!!

Its here!!

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 13:19:56 GMT

Its that time of the year again. Urgency just hit you right in the teeth where u least expected it.

Its time to fight on for the greater future!!!!!

GO GO GO!!!!

Reflections...

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 18:02:00 GMT

Some people say i have changed in terms of my personality since recent incidents. I have become more quiet, not as out going, i keep to myself more than usual or simply i jus seems different.

Have I? I am not exactly sure myself. Maybe i have.. maybe i have not.. i don't know.

Maybe all e while i am like that jus that people never realise? Being loud and out going is always a part of me. More of my closer friends would know that. But there is also another quieter side of me that most people never really had a chance to see?

Like i said before i never really regret wadever i did before. Its a learning process. Maybe that had made me think of myself more than i would last time. In a way i have learn to protect myself more now than before. Maybe thats y i keep things to myself more compared to last time? I never ever believe in confrontation. But maybe that is just some part of me will never change or maybe it will.

But anyway while typing the entry i am starting to confuse myself even more. I am jus gonna stop here.

Its about bloody time i did!!!!!

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 02:00:28 GMT

This is of my peeps who are asking me the same question again and again and again since i turn 18!! Tht was like 7 years ago??

"Long when are u gonna get ur freaking licence"!!!!

Ah Long finally is going to go get his license!!! No shit!!!

30th September!!! Mark tht date now!!!

I gonna freaking pass!!!!!

*fingers crossed*

hahahaha!!!!

Old Man!! Who me??

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 18:44:15 GMT

Well i think age is definitely catching up on me!! hahaha!! Just 2 months shy of a quarter of century old, i think i am feeling the effects of old age is about to start!!!

Past week my body clock has been totally screwed!! Monday and tuesday can't freaking sleep.. then slept more than 16 hours on wednesday. Same thing happen again on wednesday and once again stayed up til thursday nite before i caught a wink of sleep and up early on friday morning for lesson and there.. i can feel the kick of me falling sick. haha!!

The past 2 1/2 day i jus literally stayed at home and hibernate. Or should i say try to give my body a good rest. My bloody throat and nose is irritating the hell out of me again. I have fallen sick twice in a period of a month. That is something rare!! And i mean literally rare!!! I have hardly fallen sick in my past 24 years and now its all like happening at once!!! Oh no!!! I have been gulping water, swallowing pills, taking vitamin C like there is no tomorrow!!! hahaha!! And i have been reading alot about our body, from sleeping disorder to food in take!! I am starting to become abit of a health freak for the past 3 days. Minimal intake. I am jus taking 1 meal a day thts it!! All that is lacking from my healthy 3 day regime is to hit the gym and cutting down on my cigs!!

Now i am hoping to work on tht!!! And i am hoping that the time i am gonna be doing this is indefinitely!!! Muahahaha!!