Some people say i have changed in terms of my personality since recent incidents. I have become more quiet, not as out going, i keep to myself more than usual or simply i jus seems different.

Have I? I am not exactly sure myself. Maybe i have.. maybe i have not.. i don't know.

Maybe all e while i am like that jus that people never realise? Being loud and out going is always a part of me. More of my closer friends would know that. But there is also another quieter side of me that most people never really had a chance to see?

Like i said before i never really regret wadever i did before. Its a learning process. Maybe that had made me think of myself more than i would last time. In a way i have learn to protect myself more now than before. Maybe thats y i keep things to myself more compared to last time? I never ever believe in confrontation. But maybe that is just some part of me will never change or maybe it will.

But anyway while typing the entry i am starting to confuse myself even more. I am jus gonna stop here.

This is of my peeps who are asking me the same question again and again and again since i turn 18!! Tht was like 7 years ago??

"Long when are u gonna get ur freaking licence"!!!!

Ah Long finally is going to go get his license!!! No shit!!!

30th September!!! Mark tht date now!!!

I gonna freaking pass!!!!!

*fingers crossed*

hahahaha!!!!

Well i think age is definitely catching up on me!! hahaha!! Just 2 months shy of a quarter of century old, i think i am feeling the effects of old age is about to start!!!

Past week my body clock has been totally screwed!! Monday and tuesday can't freaking sleep.. then slept more than 16 hours on wednesday. Same thing happen again on wednesday and once again stayed up til thursday nite before i caught a wink of sleep and up early on friday morning for lesson and there.. i can feel the kick of me falling sick. haha!!

The past 2 1/2 day i jus literally stayed at home and hibernate. Or should i say try to give my body a good rest. My bloody throat and nose is irritating the hell out of me again. I have fallen sick twice in a period of a month. That is something rare!! And i mean literally rare!!! I have hardly fallen sick in my past 24 years and now its all like happening at once!!! Oh no!!! I have been gulping water, swallowing pills, taking vitamin C like there is no tomorrow!!! hahaha!! And i have been reading alot about our body, from sleeping disorder to food in take!! I am starting to become abit of a health freak for the past 3 days. Minimal intake. I am jus taking 1 meal a day thts it!! All that is lacking from my healthy 3 day regime is to hit the gym and cutting down on my cigs!!

Now i am hoping to work on tht!!! And i am hoping that the time i am gonna be doing this is indefinitely!!! Muahahaha!!

1 month into my new school term i really dunno wad the hell have i been doing. I seems like going back to wad i do best!! NOTHING!!!

I have no idea wad is going on in class!! I hasn't be going to school and really paying attention in class like i needed to!! Yet i am spending time on self indulgence that is not exactly getting very far!!! Or actually quite far.. been on a retail therapy rampage recently.. but but but!! I shall not elaborate on tht now!!

The only meaningful thing i done so far is the sudden urge to get my driving settle and went down to VicRoad to get my hazard test done. Either than that i am practically wasting my time away!! And the funny thing is sometime i dun even know wad i am wasting my time with!!!

Now i officially consider myself a true blue BUMMER!!!

This is getting from bad to worst!!! I have a macroeconomic test in like 2 hours time and i haven't got a wink of sleep and instead of doing last min revision i am still happily typing here... Gone case!!!

Guess whose back!!

Back again?!!

AH LONG IS BACK!!!

TELL A FRIEND!!!!

I have done things that i feel i should do...

I have also done things i feel i shouldn't...

We as a human being are never perfect.
We make wrong decisions.
We learn from mistakes.
We grow from problems we face in life.
We always struggle to find our true self.

Going through tht stage of life is never easy. But that is something all of us have to go through i feel.

I hate to show people my weakness at times. But then we always show it out when we ourselves think that we are not.

But for once i am not gonna care if people see my weakness. I don't care if people label me as a weakling. I wanna show people how savvy one can be. How strong one can be, when we climb out of the very same grave we digged with our own hands!!!

Wtf!! I am "ah long"!! I know i can freaking do wadever i want to!! I have gone through the same shit before and i am not afraid to freaking go thru it again!!! I know i will survive!! I know i am good enough to get myself out of it!!

Most importantly i know recently i have not exactly been the person tht most people are so used to. But with everything i have went thru i feel i have gained so much more than i ever expected. 

I am at Sydney at the moment.. Hmm.. in a way i prefer Melbourne so much better... Everything seems so messy here. The streets.. the people... everything!! Luckily have a pretty decent hotel room to go back too so its still not tht bad i think.

Well i am here but i dunno if i am really enjoying myself.. I mean Sydney is pretty good in some sense.. the food at the fish market was good, the opera house was nice. But at this very moment i am typing my entry i jus feel very uneasy. I dunno really wad i am going thru. I am jus very vexed and feel very uneasy i jus dunno y. My heart weighs like a tonne at the moment!!

Well i am using the hotel's computer at the moment. $2 for 20 mins of net using.. HOW "Cheap" eh?!!

Well i am gonna stop here.. i jus hope my mood and feelings get better so that i can truly enjoy this trip or maybe not!! I actually quite yearning to go back to Melbourne at the moment.. haiz...

Been almost 2 weeks since exams has ended!!! Been bumming around every freaking day!!! Aimless yet awesome!!!

From seeing Kev getting his nails painted bright red!! I am not suppose to post this up but!!! I guess its better than doing it on facebook!!! Dun worry kev!! I dun think anyone is gonna see this!! Chill Chill!!

to dying of Ade's hair!! I think i can never become a hair dresser!!! If it ever happens i will be painting pictures on my customer's face and making em wear a plastic bag to prevent the dye from dripping everywhere!!! It is also the nite where i drop my towel into the freaking toilet bowl!! Oh and towel here are not cheap!! I got my new towels at 20 aussie a piece and its already on discount!!!!

Ohhhh i also got my new jeans!!!! Now wads left is a nice jacket!!! I am wishing and hoping now!!!

Wait wait i am not done yet!!! Lisi is reaching on friday morning at 840am!!! YAY!! My holidays is jus getting better and better and better!!!!

From specs hunting.. to dinner at TGI Friday.. to Indiana Jones and finally the last destination the photo booth!!!

Good company just makes everyone's day seems so much better!!!

 

Ruoting!! Here are my new shoes!! haha!! And the pic i took today tht i say i liked alot!!!