Unknowingly i am reaching the final lap of my educational life? 1 more month! Hopefully i will not call myself a student again. God knows wad is waiting for me after that. Not gonna think about that now. I jus wanna graduate in peace in December! Praying real hard!!

Whatever things that might seem so good and sounds so awesome might always has a down side? It has been 3 times since.. everytime it is something different. Does reality always turn out opposite of what u dream?

Something is bugging me.. but i cannot figure out what is it.. hahaha!
Been feeling freaking restless recently.. like something is about to happen or something is going wrong somehow!
But what is it!!!

Anxiety attack!!!

Had a dream that i never wanna wake up from...
Everything was so nice and peaceful..
Filled with bliss and happiness..
Bring me back again...

I should be typing away at my 4 coming assignments yet i am blogging.. tell me about distractions!! hahaha!!!

Recently been having alot of thoughts about myself lately. Wenjun says changes are a good thing but dun ever lose myself, Ade says tht i have changed, am not the same like before, am more decisive and critical.

I keep thinking were the changes good or bad? I can never come up with an answer for myself. Thinking, ideas and principles i hold so strongly last time seems like all a fantasy that i created for myself because i feel that should be the way a person should live their lifes. But recently i am starting to question myself about wad i believe in last time. It seems like i am losing myself or am i still searching for the true "ah long".

I keep telling myself that after last year i finally started to think more. But the more i think the more i feel it is not jus the past year, i feel it has been years after years of accommadating and accepting everything be it good or bad actually made me realise tht probably enough is enough? Why should i be accommodating to the extend that i use to be??

I have created a barrier around myself now in order to protect myself even more than ever. I dun trust people easily now. Even for those i trust i will still create that barrier around me to protect myself for any unpredictable consequences. I dun laugh and try to be fun all the time anymore. I am starting to keep to myself more and always want to be in my own world.

Actually i also dunno wad i have become. Hopefully i can find the true "ah long" soon.

My blog needed some life so here i am!!!

Can't believe i haven wrote anything since like the day i got my licence!! Good 4 to 5 months i went missing from here.

I wonder if anyone still come n see if i had wrote anything or does anyone still read it anymore. haha!!

Well exams went pretty ok i guess? I got grades tht i predicted except for one.. Screw macro!! I still manage to  survived and i am still on course to grad at the end of this year!! Been doing quite abit during my 2 1/2 months of summer break in Sin. Kev came to sin and left and come again and left again a total of 3 times. haha!! Finally made my way to Sabah and spend a punt load of money there. Kept bowling til i dunno wad is day and night, oh and i think i am starting to improve thts why decided to get into the RMIT bowling team for coming Aus Uni Games in Sept this year and to get some secret training!! Behold!!!

Got my PS3!! Done shit load of shopping!! Got my house!! Set up my room to a pretty decent state i must say, haha!! All seems good til now and i hopes it carries on!!

A side note,
Hear some news recently, i dunno if its a happy or sad one. Suddenly made me think of alot of pointless stuff. Anyway its not my problem and don't really affect me in any give situation. Well i think i will leave it as tht then!!!

After years and years of procastinating i finally got this damn thing in my hands!! Everything jus went so smoothly no hick ups!!!

Finally finally got my Red P!!!!

After 1 night of drinking and chilling and talking at Steve's place i have come up with a wish list before the end of 2008!!!

1) Sony Ericsson Xperia 1
2) My first and only tattoo. I think will be the ONLY one!! We shall see!
3) Hopefully can lose some extra pounds!

Ok for now thts the only 3 i can come up with!

I think these 3 is good enough to occupy my time during December! LOL!

 

Well i was just looking through my posts on my blog since i arrived in Melbourne last July.

I hasn't been writting alot since the day i set foot on this huge ass island to pursue a better future. I dunno whether is that bad or good? Bad cos there isn't much here to write about or good that there are jus too much thing for me to do til i can't be bothered? Ok i think i am typing rubbish now. I have no idea wad i am typing now, i am just trying to make something up. Ok that was a bad attempt.

Been looking at those entries and looking thru the tonnes of photo that i have took here so far. Unknowingly i have spend almost 3 semesters here. Time jus flew by and it totally feels as though i jus came here and trying to make a life out of it. Some things turn out differently from how i picture myself to be before i came here. Well not everything goes ur way in life huh? I guess i have learnt so much more here than i thought i would.

I just dunno why am i typing this entry. Its like i have a sudden rush of emotions but yet i cannot figure out wad is it. I think its homesickness! Yes i wanna go home real real bad!!! Shocked hearing tht from me eh?? haha!! But i feel thats jus not the only thing. I am stressed about school work and exams. I have been slacking quite abit this semester or should i say alot? OK i am starting to procastinate now. I feel the urgency but somehow i am not exactly doing anything at the moment!! Shite!!!

I also feel the nearer i am to graduating i am worrying more about wad i am gonna do after i graduate. Am i gonna study on further to get a post-grad but that would means an extra burden on my parents yet again. Or am i gonna go into the real world by joining the work force?? Well i think tht is jus something i have to face sooner or later but i am jus gonna stop at that for the time being.

Lastly this for all the people back home!!! I am gonna go back soon!!!! 21st Nov to be exact!!!

Yueklin!!! U better be free on tht night for dinner!!!

Jun, Zhonghe and Andy!!! Wait for me to go back!!! And pray that i will be the one driving this time round!!!!

Shing and Ruoting!!! Better come to back Sin ASAP!!!!

Celia!! Ur mi amor is gonna be back soon!!!! KTV!!!!

Baba & Yan!!! Eventhough we haven't been contacting much since i came back!! I miss u guys heaps!!!!

Tracy!! UR PTL IS COMING HOME AGAIN!!!!

And lastly all to my cousins!!! I can't wait to see u guys again!!!!!

YAY!! I AM GONNA GO HOME SOON!!!!!

Its that time of the year again. Urgency just hit you right in the teeth where u least expected it.

Its time to fight on for the greater future!!!!!

GO GO GO!!!!