Just within 3 short weeks of returning home.. i have conquered KL and Bkk! Kch better dun disappoint me! hahaha!!

My mind is like a whirl wind now.. going round and round and it dun seems to be slowing down.. why?!

Everything seems to back to where it started, should i push on or take a step back? Everything seems to be like a reenactment of the past. Some people say push on and some people say halt. i thought i have an answer but yet its in jeopardy now due to my own assumptions and thoughts, what am i suppose to do? I guess only time will tell..

Everyone has left.. all the noise.. all the laughter and joy are no longer lingering in this perfect house tht i found for myself this year.

Everything this year was like a big whirlwind for me, from the initial plan of finding a 2 bedroom apartment with Rain, ended up in getting this place; 3 storey, 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom, 2 balcony and a whole lot of fun with Ade, Pam, Rain and myself and with the late arrival of Lydecker.

Now i am sitting alone in the living room filled with so much fun and crazy memories, i can still remember the first steamboat the 4 of us had as a celebration of moving into this new house, to a little Wonder Girl craze tht was kick started by Rain, the numerous sing-a-along the itune session, the countless meals we all had together, and now i am looking at the empty living room and kitchen and thinking to myself what a fruitful 2009 it has been. I have made friends where i think are to keep for life, I gotten to know Ade, Pam and Rain better, i met awesome people like Lydecker, Lionel, JY and gotten closer to the year 2 peeps where i never thought possible.

What more can i ask for?! 8 Hotham Street has officially became one of the best moment in life for the past 26 years!!

Finally i am done with uni! Time to prepare for the graduation!! Also time to start packing!!

I know last year i was whining on how much i miss home.. this time round i think its 100 times worst!! I so freaking wanna go home now!!! Can't wait to see what is in stall for me back home!!

OMG jus let all my stuff here disappear and i can jet home asap!!

After these few years, suddenly things become so apparent all a sudden?
Was it something that have been lurking in the back of my head or a sudden surge of thoughts and thinking?
Whatever it is, i am bracing myself, some said i am overly calm!
Calm is good! Overly calm is weird?
Guess we'll never really know!

Unknowingly i am reaching the final lap of my educational life? 1 more month! Hopefully i will not call myself a student again. God knows wad is waiting for me after that. Not gonna think about that now. I jus wanna graduate in peace in December! Praying real hard!!

Whatever things that might seem so good and sounds so awesome might always has a down side? It has been 3 times since.. everytime it is something different. Does reality always turn out opposite of what u dream?

Something is bugging me.. but i cannot figure out what is it.. hahaha!
Been feeling freaking restless recently.. like something is about to happen or something is going wrong somehow!
But what is it!!!

Anxiety attack!!!

Had a dream that i never wanna wake up from...
Everything was so nice and peaceful..
Filled with bliss and happiness..
Bring me back again...

I should be typing away at my 4 coming assignments yet i am blogging.. tell me about distractions!! hahaha!!!

Recently been having alot of thoughts about myself lately. Wenjun says changes are a good thing but dun ever lose myself, Ade says tht i have changed, am not the same like before, am more decisive and critical.

I keep thinking were the changes good or bad? I can never come up with an answer for myself. Thinking, ideas and principles i hold so strongly last time seems like all a fantasy that i created for myself because i feel that should be the way a person should live their lifes. But recently i am starting to question myself about wad i believe in last time. It seems like i am losing myself or am i still searching for the true "ah long".

I keep telling myself that after last year i finally started to think more. But the more i think the more i feel it is not jus the past year, i feel it has been years after years of accommadating and accepting everything be it good or bad actually made me realise tht probably enough is enough? Why should i be accommodating to the extend that i use to be??

I have created a barrier around myself now in order to protect myself even more than ever. I dun trust people easily now. Even for those i trust i will still create that barrier around me to protect myself for any unpredictable consequences. I dun laugh and try to be fun all the time anymore. I am starting to keep to myself more and always want to be in my own world.

Actually i also dunno wad i have become. Hopefully i can find the true "ah long" soon.

My blog needed some life so here i am!!!

Can't believe i haven wrote anything since like the day i got my licence!! Good 4 to 5 months i went missing from here.

I wonder if anyone still come n see if i had wrote anything or does anyone still read it anymore. haha!!

Well exams went pretty ok i guess? I got grades tht i predicted except for one.. Screw macro!! I still manage to  survived and i am still on course to grad at the end of this year!! Been doing quite abit during my 2 1/2 months of summer break in Sin. Kev came to sin and left and come again and left again a total of 3 times. haha!! Finally made my way to Sabah and spend a punt load of money there. Kept bowling til i dunno wad is day and night, oh and i think i am starting to improve thts why decided to get into the RMIT bowling team for coming Aus Uni Games in Sept this year and to get some secret training!! Behold!!!

Got my PS3!! Done shit load of shopping!! Got my house!! Set up my room to a pretty decent state i must say, haha!! All seems good til now and i hopes it carries on!!

A side note,
Hear some news recently, i dunno if its a happy or sad one. Suddenly made me think of alot of pointless stuff. Anyway its not my problem and don't really affect me in any give situation. Well i think i will leave it as tht then!!!