Insomnia on a early Wednesday morning with work later is worrying. Been thinking since it has been awhile since i was here snooping around, maybe this is a perfect time to come in and leave some mundane or worthless thoughts of mine?

Why do human love to compare and why do human have expectations? Yes yes.. if anyone is reading this probably think with comparison and expectations, its a way of betterment to ourselves, but what if it is something that makes you feel like you are not as important as you thought you were? Why are we being treated differently? Then where do we go from here? Do we search for the way we want to be treated? Or to accept what has already been presented in-front of us? What is fairness? I assume fairness is in the eye of the beholder? So do i deem everything fair or unfair to me?

Okay. I think i have asked enough questions for a short post. Adios. I think its time for me to try to get some sleep!

Enjoy the moment while it last or end it abruptly?

Decisions i am dreading to decide...

World Cup fever has reaches its climax when Spain lost their opening game!! HAHA!!

Well i love watching soccer but this time round i am not choosing any country to support as watching all the emo and complain unfold is awesome!! hahaha!!! Through out the whole EPL season i have seen countless ppl going on and on bout how good their team is and how happy when they see Man Utd lose! Yes Yes i admit i support the Red Devils. But i have always kept my emotion in check when they lose cos sometimes its nice to see ppl get slap by their own statements!

Yes yes i am directing this at individual but i doubt he/she will be looking at this! haha!! Time for me to take a little dig at him/her! HAHA!
When Casillas makes a blunder suddenly Pepe Reina becomes so much better than him!! This is laughable!! Wake up ur bloody idea please!! No matter how much u hope he is better.. face it!! he is not!! And yes!! Del Bosque is dumb cos he play Torres too late!! Look at him!! No match sharpness! Even if he came on eariler he will still blunder his chances!! Sometimes i really wonder r u supporting a country or the players of the club u support? Have u forgotten bout the other players playing for tht country? hahaha!!!

It just cracks me up see all the non-stop updates of these weird statements thru facebook on iphone!! I am so tempted to say who the person is.. i shall let the cat out of the bag abit.. its a HER!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

How time flies.. first was 5 years.. and now 1 week! I couldn't have hoped for a better week! My dreams has became reality in the most surreal way!

I am hoping for many many many many more weeks to come as we carry on this path together.

I have been able to sense and appreciate what she has shown me in the short 1 week. I am not the most romantic person in the world and also not one that is good with words but i can assure that i will always be that humble and appreciative person that i know i am.

:)

Someone always says.. never say things too quickly!! Well now i truly truly believe in that phrase!!

Its time to go with the flow i assume...

走在人挤人的走道 我问了自已
没有爱情的人是否会长命
那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信

坐在没有人的角落 我又问自已
究竟应该继续 还是该放弃
没有人能了解我 现在的心情
想看你 想躲你 难以决定

每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去

坐在没有人的角落 我又问自已
究竟应该继续 还是该放弃
没有人能了解我 现在的心情
想看你 想躲你 难以决定

每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去

能不能够让我 再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你 彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清

每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏

我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起

After weeks of speculation everything seems so clear now. I dunno is it something that i want but i am damn sure i can live with it. Everything seems easier the second time round, maybe i have learn from mistakes. Questions still lingers but sometimes things are better left unsaid? Have i done enough? I don't think so. Was it too little? Maybe. But whatever it is I felt good saying it out.

I am over calm this time round. Wonder is it good or bad.. i think time will tell! But at least this time it won't take years to get over it. Thinking back maybe i should risk everything but is it worth it?! I guess we will never know the answer. Once again there are things left unsaid on my part. But maybe sometimes it better to hold back than go all out.

I guess that is all i have to say....

Finally got my resume done and apply for a couple of jobs! Crossing my fingers!!

People keep saying wad am i waiting for?! I dun have a answer at all! Daunting past still haunts me from time to time.. But i believe i have to grow out of it! If i never try or ask.. i will never know.. but i am sure i am gonna be a better loser this time round! I know i am prepared!! So here goes!!!

Just within 3 short weeks of returning home.. i have conquered KL and Bkk! Kch better dun disappoint me! hahaha!!

My mind is like a whirl wind now.. going round and round and it dun seems to be slowing down.. why?!

Everything seems to back to where it started, should i push on or take a step back? Everything seems to be like a reenactment of the past. Some people say push on and some people say halt. i thought i have an answer but yet its in jeopardy now due to my own assumptions and thoughts, what am i suppose to do? I guess only time will tell..

Everyone has left.. all the noise.. all the laughter and joy are no longer lingering in this perfect house tht i found for myself this year.

Everything this year was like a big whirlwind for me, from the initial plan of finding a 2 bedroom apartment with Rain, ended up in getting this place; 3 storey, 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom, 2 balcony and a whole lot of fun with Ade, Pam, Rain and myself and with the late arrival of Lydecker.

Now i am sitting alone in the living room filled with so much fun and crazy memories, i can still remember the first steamboat the 4 of us had as a celebration of moving into this new house, to a little Wonder Girl craze tht was kick started by Rain, the numerous sing-a-along the itune session, the countless meals we all had together, and now i am looking at the empty living room and kitchen and thinking to myself what a fruitful 2009 it has been. I have made friends where i think are to keep for life, I gotten to know Ade, Pam and Rain better, i met awesome people like Lydecker, Lionel, JY and gotten closer to the year 2 peeps where i never thought possible.

What more can i ask for?! 8 Hotham Street has officially became one of the best moment in life for the past 26 years!!